Reflection

Summer for me is always a time for reflection. Reflection on where life has taken me and where life is going to take me. I just got back from youth camp with our church yesterday and just being in a place where there is no TV, away from the routine of everyday life, only a minimal (very minimal) amount of Facebook time (from Chris' Blackberry) does one get to slow down. I sat and read my book, did devotions (intensively rather than thinking ok--i have this amount of time and then I have to go do.....) and got to be with kids and other adults all day long that I normally wouldn't not have been with. It was great!!! I am spending today relaxing and replaying all of the events.

I got to enjoy watching, from a distance, K with all of her friends. I stayed in her dorm (purely by the fact that I didn't want to stay on a two inch mattress) but I stayed on the couch (comfy!!) in the living area. I was always gone before she was up and throughout the day, when she came walking by, I could see her from a distance. Man she has grown up in every way since just last year (I went last year). My heartaches bc I know that in only three years she will be a graduate and these days are almost over. I know this is a part of life but for just one minute I want to stop time and keep her right here.

I also got to see Chris in a new light. He was a leader with the middle school boys. He had as much fun as they did. We were so busy doing our own thing that it made me realize just how much I love him so. I helped the RN this week. I was the MN-- aka Momma Nurse!!! I can apply band-aides, wash out cuts, and give some love to those that need it. I left the big stuff to the RN. I spent two days going back and forth the hospital with two separate kids. The last one I took had a compound fracture and he was only 12. SCARED !!!! I treat him just as if he were mine. I called his dad and let them know that they needed to be on their way and that I would keep them informed every minute. WHICH I LITERALLY DID!!! I just have the attitude of "what would I want"!!! I made that trip three years ago to get Kristin when she broke her ankle and so I know those feelings. I let him know everything that was going to happen and that I would be with him and go through it with him. Never once leaving him!!! AND THAT is what God does with us!!! He goes with us, he knows more than we know, we have to trust even though we fear!!! We have to follow and allow Him to shape us even though we don't want to at times. I cuddled this little one in my arms and rubbed his hair (like someone used to do for me to make all the bad not so bad) and we talked, he slept, and we waited until his mom and dad walked in. God cuddles us, soothes us, knows how to comfort us and we just need to let Him do his job!!! He knows what is best so we have to trust.

I guess that is what I got out of this camp and the reason I went!!!