Dealing.....

How do you deal with people, who for some reason, act like they "care" but you know they don't? When they are around you -- you just know it is fake and they can't wait to get "away". They are only "caring" b/c it is what they are supposed to do. We use to call those people two faced - and I still do. I am quite aware of those that are like this and as far as I am concerned they need not waste their time nor mine. I don't have to be "cared" for that way. I am perfectly fine with who my friends are and I know they truly CARE for me, want to be around me, care when I am around, and actually like being around me. THEY ACCEPT ME (faults and all).

No, I don't live in a fancy house, I do work (which I like), my husband doesn't make "6 figures", I can't go shopping at on a whim (and to be frank I wouldn't if I could), my kids don't wear all name brands (and I am glad), and I don't have all the "manners" that high society might think you need, but I am me. I don't have to be fake. I am an intelligent, highly educated (and use it) woman. Who loves being a mom and a wife!!! I am more than you think I am b/c those so called friends don't know me at all. They haven't taking the time to know me b/c I might not be up to their class. I don't want to try to impress someone b/c it is like this - you either like me or you don't. SIMPLE.

For the longest, I wondered why these person would feel they have to be that way. I would wonder what have I done, how can I change so they will accept me or do I need to apologize for something that I am unaware of. But you know, it isn't about me - I don't have the problem the other person does. If you can't come talk to me about the issue at hand than you were probably just looking for an excuse to end the "so called relationship" anyway. And actually there probably wasn't one to begin with.

I am freeing myself from other's issue. Leaving them to deal with their own problems. I know that my life hasn't been book perfect but it hasn't been all that bad and I do like it for the most part. I have realized that if those types of persons feel the need to be around me is b/c they feel they are obligated -please don't- I don't need it and you certainly don't want it so spare both of us. If you feel that you have to gain something so you "need" to be around-- I ask once again please spare me and you.

Yes, you are probably reading this going --"OKAY"- Something is up with her. Trust me nothing is up just thoughts that I have had and I am trying to make ME a better person so I can I can be a better wife, mom and me. To much garbage from others will really weigh one down I have found out. AND the only way to make that better is to know that some issues are totally out of my control and I don't have to stress myself about them.

RELIEF? YES
DO I FEEL BETTER? YES
DO YOU NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ME? NOT AT ALL-
HEAVY? YOU MIGHT THINK SO BUT I FEEL a lot LIGHTER

Thanks for reading (and I mean that). If you are reading b/c you feel like you have to -- I will never know if you do so don't waste your time. You won't be hurting my feeling one way or the other.

Just remember no matter what your feelings are towards me you have made some type of impact on me and usually I don't harbor the "bad impacts"-So you most likely made a positive impact on my. No matter what your thoughts are about me just know that I have a very huge heart (which is why I have carried these thoughts around for so long and I try to make the situation better) and you will always be there. But some relationships tend to be "not good" so we shall part ways. AND I truly mean this- there will be no hard feelings on my side!!!