A Heavy Heart

We all have so many friends and family in each of our lives that we don't stop sometimes and realize how blessed we really are by God. I know that over the many years, I have been blessed with so many friends; however, with what could amount to excuses I have failed to keep some form of communication with over these years. Yes, the Christmas cards, the occasionally thought to email or drop a note passes with all good intentions but does that person(s) really know that I hold them close to heart and that I am truly thankful that we passed through each other's life.

However, my heart has became heavy over the last 2 years for friends that I have taken for granted. I have been wondering of the "what if I......?", three different set of friends that I have lost touched with, I have now heard have faced or are facing a very difficult time in their life and this has made my heart so very heavy. I want to go to them, put my arms around them and ask for forgiveness, sit and listen, and once again just be there. Not there to judge but there because sometimes, during those times of heartache, we feel all alone.

I find my myself asking: What if I could have done more? What if I would have just paid closer attention? What if I wouldn't have lost touch? What if .....? ----

Would it have made a difference? Could God have used me in some way to make a difference? Would He have used me? Was I not listening? Was I to consumed? I don't know the answer to these questions and I don't even know if situations would have been different. But what I do know is that through prayer and my walk with our loving God that he will use me in a way that is His will not mine.

I don't know what His will will be in my friends' lives that have found themselves where they could not ever have imagined. But what I do know is His will will be done!!!

So take the time to pick up the phone, drop an email, send a card, or go and visit a friend that God dropped into your life years ago, months ago, weeks ago or just yesterday and say Hi-- how are you? and see what God has planned. I can't wait to see what is going to happen.

Take care-- Love you all!!!